The Very First Time

Do you remember the first time you did something? Whether it was so sweet or disastrous, that first time almost never leaves the memory...
The first toy you broke...
The first spank you got from your Dad for breaking it...
The first shoe you ever picked over your Mom’s choice...
The first fight with your sibling over the larger piece of chocolate...
The first day at kindergarten...
The first glance you got from a girl when you were 7 or the first red heart sticker that a boy in class gave you and ran away...
The first punishment you got from a teacher...
The first drawing you were very proud of...
The first lie you still feel guilty of telling..
The first time you ever dressed yourself the way you wanted...
The first time you fell and went back to your Mom with a bleeding knee and a false brave look...
The first shot that hurt your butt so much and were embarrassed to say so...
The first sand castle you built and were so angry at the waves for taking it down...
The first plant you grew...
The first nightmare you were afraid to tell anyone about...
The first song you were fascinated by...
The first crush ...
The first flutters of love for the next door neighbour...
The first pain of a broken heart...
The first horrible haircut you spent the night crying about...
The first try to reach out and touch a hand just inches away from your own...
The first daring trip you took...
The first card you received...
The first time behind the wheel ...
The first truest kiss from a lover...
The first hug you breathed your frustration into ...
The first cake you ever made and ate alone because no one came near it...
The first clumsy present you made with your own imagination...
The first tear of loss...
The first sweet dream you wanted to keep secret for ever...
The first moment you lay sweaty with a smile after an exceptionally active eternity...
The first time you ever felt the sweeping sensation taking you away...
The first minute you have a family of your own ...
The first time you looked at your new born ...
The first spank you give your child for breaking his toy ...
The first moment .. Of the rest of your life ...

So tell me … Do you ?

WHAT ?

Should I or shouldn't I ??

I guess I asked this very question lots of times before .. and almost always had an answer too late ... but not anymore .....

Should I or shouldn't I break down and show the whole world that I am feeling weak at this very moment ?
Should I or shouldn't I go on with this losing battle with a college I hate ?
Should I or shouldn't I do something I so wanna do but am scared to do it ?
Should I or shouldn't I run in the middle of this dirty alley .. run so fast I don't get to stay behind and watch my tears land on the ground ?
Should I or shouldn't I forget ?
Should I or shouldn't I let myself go and laugh my heart out ?
Should I ?
I think I should ... not !!!!


Update :

I worked out some answeres to those ..
yes , no , yes , yes , no , yes .....